u wont really understand until we come to the end. now just believe that my God is good.

if u think it's easy, it isn't.
if u think im happy, im not.
if u think im proud, no.
if u think i wanna be longer here, unfortunately i dont.
the one and only reason to stay is a hope.
i still keep a hope.
that one day these tears are used to the glory of my God.
at the end, people will know and praise Him to the high.
cause this is about God's story, not mine.
im only a tool. a minor character in His whole story.
at the end those that mock me will praise Him because of His work through these painful paths.
i will not be willing to walk on the rough path if God dont go with me and put a grace of hope to keep me walking on.