Days before that day, I didn't know, I just felt that peop around me
didn't really love and care about me. Actually that was not a new thing.
So, the same thing that I had ever felt several years ago came back and
I totally hated it. It hurted me as painful as before. I'm sure none
wants to try to feel it. At that time, I was lil bit frustrated, I
didn't have any ideas why it happened again and I always remembered that
I ever said to God in a prayer before I decided to study in Sala3 that
"Dear God, if U really wants me to go there, please please please don't
let me suffer and feel that kind of thing again, I want many friends
beside me." However, that thing came! I felt none I could trust, none
really loved me as I dreamed, there was me or not, it didn't change
anything at all! "That was okay!" I tried to calm down ma self. At that
time I just didn't want to relate it to God, I just avoided ma self to
blame Him bcz I know He's good. What I thought only the way to go away
from them that caused this feeling to save ma heart. Afterward, at
night, I did my silent time, I really needed to talk to Him, to share
all my feelings. Then, I prayed with trembling heart and voice. After
that, I opened the given verse for that day from a reflection book,
Yesaya 43:4.
"Oh, God!" my tears falling down like flood when I read it.
Oleh karena engkau berharga di mata-Ku dan mulia, dan Aku ini mengasihi engkau, maka Aku memberikan manusia sebagai gantimu, dan bangsa-bangsa sebagai ganti nyawamu.
I read it once again and tears went down more and more. GOD really spoke to me. When I, even people felt that I was nothing, HE said that I was everything for HIM. HE encouraged 'n strengthened my broken heart directly. HE reminded me 'bout HIS unlimited true love, faithful love without any requirements, for me. And I should put the worth of myself in GOD who was able to receive me with HIS unrequirement love.
Thanks GOD, I know YOU are good 'n always.
Dn't see how big ur problem is, yet say "See, How BIG my GOD is!" to problem. :)
"Oh, God!" my tears falling down like flood when I read it.
Oleh karena engkau berharga di mata-Ku dan mulia, dan Aku ini mengasihi engkau, maka Aku memberikan manusia sebagai gantimu, dan bangsa-bangsa sebagai ganti nyawamu.
I read it once again and tears went down more and more. GOD really spoke to me. When I, even people felt that I was nothing, HE said that I was everything for HIM. HE encouraged 'n strengthened my broken heart directly. HE reminded me 'bout HIS unlimited true love, faithful love without any requirements, for me. And I should put the worth of myself in GOD who was able to receive me with HIS unrequirement love.
Thanks GOD, I know YOU are good 'n always.
Dn't see how big ur problem is, yet say "See, How BIG my GOD is!" to problem. :)
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